Oct. 25th-Full exposure

I intentionally put this challenge off until later in the month hoping that my new daily work outs would make it more bearable...or rather, bare-able. Today I challenged myself to stand fully naked in front of a mirror for a solid 5 minutes without turning away or rolling my eyes. I wanted to do this because for the last few years I've had the hardest time getting used to how many changes have occurred to my physical appearance. The sagging, stretched out skin with the lumps and bumps in all the wrong places has been quite frightening.

This was going to be one of the hardest challenges I'm asking myself to do. I try really hard not to catch a glimpse of myself after getting out of the shower for fear I'll be horrified. As a pretty modest person I don't spend a lot of time walking around naked...I actually never do. But I've come to the realization that my body is only going to get worse so if I can't embrace it now how will I ever be able to?

So I did try my best today but I only lasted 3 minutes instead of the 5 I wanted to do and I did start doing leg lifts and squats to try and tighten things up while I stood there. I didn't roll my eyes at myself, but it was a tiny bit pitiful. Why don't I feel any different inside than I did when I was a teenager, but on the outside it's a whole different story? Mom always said that your mind might still be acting and thinking like you're 21 but your body is constantly evolving into someone else. Then one day you wake up and you're 70 and when you look in the mirror you can't really find yourself in the image at all.

I guess the best approach is to either throw away all of our mirrors and just focus on the person inside...or, age gracefully and accept that what's inside is much more important than what's outside anyway so why let it get the best of you.